What a Day of Ups an Downs

Yesterday was the first national day celebration in school where I did not have to perform as I've been in the school choir for around 10years :0 and every year the choir performs on national day n_n but yesterday was a refreshing change I guess? it was so cool just sitting there and cheering for every performer up there. I actually really really really missed performing u_u 

You can't blame me for feeling a tiny bit of regret that I quit AJ choir (I was in it for.... Two practices and I hated it oops) because everyone up there was sooooo good. 

Anyway! I was really happy in the morning as I realised that I didn't have to spend my ridiculous 2h break alone! I had yongwei to accompany me muahahahah 

It was so nice just talking to him about anything and everything.

Apparently, if he married Laura, he's have to cook because Laura would be standing there and be all girly like "ahhhhh the oil splashed into my skin (´Д` )" 

And if he married me, I'll be screaming at him "fuck you this is too spicy" (WHICH IS TOTALLY UNTRUE OK I DONT AND WON'T EVER COMPLAIN IF SOMEONE COOKS FOR ME)

After we went to the canteen to eat and this is where the shitty part started (it only got shitty at night but... Sigh). We were making fun of yongwei because Jan likes him and I don't or can't remember us "judging" people. So apparently I was all "shallow" because I sat down there judging people and it was suffocating to sit there with us while we continued to judge people. 

It's either 

1. I'm having Alzheimer's because wow I don't even know what I did to constitute "judging" someone or 

2. Bitching has become such a prominent part of me that I have no recollections of being judgemental as it is now a reflex thing to do

Additionally, what's so shallow about judging someone? We all do it subconsciously wtf. Within 3 seconds of meeting someone you judge them too. Get off your high moral horse. I just choose to say it out loud (if I really did). So because I voice out my opinion of someone really loudly and in my normal bimbotic manner I am shallow? Ok. I respect your opinion but that doesn't mean I agree with it. 

Also, I don't think it's a bad thing to *eyeroll* "judge" someone because of the Harm Principle wtf. Am I ever going to go after them with a knife? I don't think so. 

AND, I did NOT say things like "omg her whole family should burn" or "wow her face is so ugly it looks like someone stabbed her face while it was alight with flame" or "heck she should die just because I said so" 

To think I still wanted to sit beside you during the celebration. 

The performances were not bad n_n yongwei was freaking cool wtf if I had a mini-crush on him it'd turn to full-blown love already wtf. (DISCLAIMER before you girls send me hate mail, I do not like yongwei in any way. Oddly enough I've never fancied him o_o he's like some brother I never had lol) 

And yes I tried some photo editing app and the results are a bit weird. 

Our eye bags U_U

Ah and my day became shit when I made eye contact with K in the canteen before the performances started. I don't know why. It really made me feel shitty. 

Throughout the entire concert I just felt like.... A demon was suppressing my feelings. I felt so annoyed and sad. Good gracious. Then I took a mini-nap and texted Gorilla and felt so much better.

After, we did project work n_n it was really unproductive ugh everyone was just so tired T_T but then...

Unglamorous photo of best because we wanted to test out the boob-enhancing effect of the photo editing app BUT IT WAS SO FAIL

Laura knew that I told Gorilla her ec and she FREAKED THE FK OUT 

I was sincerely so so so so so sorry wtf I really let it slip unintentionally T_T I swear I do not go around announcing who your ec (or.. Uh ex ec is). Please don't hate me.

If you're reading this I'm really v sorry 

But anyway we sorta "made-up" LOL and went to the TV lounge to play Jenga and watch some... Tamil drama. 

The Tamil drama was so interesting I don't even. It was filmed in such a way that was so...

Dramatic

1. Flashing lights

2. Slow-mo any where possible

3. Abrupt change of music back and forth during scene changes (we died laughing at this one. Because one scene would be all *exciting and really intense music* but then when they changed the scene to the other protagonist it became *soothing trance music* then it switched to *exciting and really intense music* the next 5seconds because the scene changed again) 

4. Extremely dramatic crying

And Laura kept saying "someone is going to die-I am sure of it" THAT TOTALLY DIDNT HELP WITH THE RIDICULOUS SITUATION OK LOL

ahhhh and that was yesterday.

It was filled with so many emotions

So many different feelings. 

It was nice to have the sad parts because it reminded me that days won't always be smooth and happy. 

I also got reminded of how I felt like shit 4 months ago. I will never forget that feeling.

jaslynnxxx