What have I been doing for the past few months?
I wonder.
Apart from having fun, honing my bullshitting skills, crying over heartbreak, wasting time on people that don't matter and twitter, I am certain that I have done absolutely NOTHING productive (academic-wise). I deserve my horrendous mid-year marks.
I honestly thought it would be easy to score As for my mid-years. After all... I have put in minimum effort and got As all along. How difficult it will be, right?
WRONG.
A levels... It's a whole new level of brain twisting content. The questions they ask are the type of questions that you think you got right when actually you didn't even answer a single shit the examiners want. It's the type of game where it seems easy but is filled with tricks and traps. It's the type of game I am horrible at.
I guess I am lucky in the sense that I understand new concepts extremely fast. If I read through the lecture notes by myself without the lecturers explaining, I can get it with minimal difficulty. But what makes it so difficult is my LAZINESS. I've been so annoyingly lazy all my life (getting average marks without even trying) that I've become conceited. Ha. Since I'm so naturally smart, why should I work hard?
WRONG.
Bitch now you've realised how wrong it is to be so full of yourself. I've screwed up my PSLE (221 LOL), screwed up my O levels (10 points isn't good. At. All. It may be considered great in my substandard secondary school but I've realised how easy it is to get 10 or even 6 points for O levels when I entered JC. Everyone here is either truly naturally smart, have amazing memory or just plain hard working and twice as determined as I am. And as what my biology teacher mentioned, the O levels are NONSENSE. What they test in the O levels are so terribly EASY compared to the A levels. Honestly, if anyone tried hard enough, they could have gotten all A1s for their O levels. But I didn't. That's how I got lucky and ended up with 10 points.) and now I'm gonna screw up my promotional examinations? HECK NO.
Mr Kumar, I will show you that I can indeed do maths (ok maybe not the upcoming math test..) and I shall and will get at least a D for the promotional exams. I WILL SHOW YOU OK SO YOU WILL STOP THINKING I'M BEYOND REDEMPTION, BITCH.
Mrs Chai, I will show you that I am absolutely capable of conquering chemistry questions. I shall and will get at least a C for chemistry during promos. AND I WILL ATTEMPT TO OWN JERROLD THAT IDIOT.
Mr Ho, I will show you that I deserve to promote to J2. I will NOT allow you to tell me "I told you so" EVER AGAIN. I WILL GET A B FOR BIOLOGY OK YOU JUST WAIT.
Mr Sen, you are horrible at teaching economics but it's ok I kinda like economics and thus I will study the content on my own so whatever I will be happy with an S for economics.
And I will prove to myself that I can do this. 8 more weeks.
Retaining was never a possible future in my head... Now it is... And no this future will never come true, because I'll never, ever, allow it to happen.
jaslynnxxx
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