Sunday, August 18, 2013

The Last Breath I Breathe

I thought today would be a lovely day.

But how wrong I was.

I'm really dreading all of this.

The moment I step into the door... Every thing annoying/ unpleasant happens.

So much favouritism you show towards my sister...
Has it ever occurred to you how hurt and sad I would ever feel?
Today I had enough. 
If I could avoid interacting with you two ever I would.

They say family is where support and love stems from.
I say its my heartache.

But everything was triggered by that one text.
That one text from someone I was once so close and cared so much about.
I was so sad for a few months.
Just when I've decided to let it go, your text comes in, saying how much you miss me.
Well, has it ever occurred to you how much I miss you too?
Everything we ever had.
How can I let it go away?
How could I?
But just when I decided to let you go, You come back again.
Just when I was alright about you going away.

And of course I was cold to your messgages. I felt sad since then. What would you want me to reply? "Oh hi n_n" ? 
What should I do?
What should we do?

Tonight was extremely sad. 
I haven't cried because I was sad since... I can't remember.
Usually when I cry, I'm deliriously angry.
But now...
It's sadness.
I wish no one would ever feel what I'm feeling now. It's not exactly lovely, you know?

The tears won't stop.


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