But other than that, it was quite productive (for me, at least) as I now know I am familiar enough with my script to not use cue cards n_n I hope everything goes well on that day.
I just came back from shopping with Jiaqin~ we were supposed to go cycling but stupid ass Joe (the owner of the bike rental shop) only opens his shop at 2pm wtf. I bet this bitch went partying the night before and was hungover. I really really wanted to cycle though T_T such lovely weather. But we went to Somerset for shopping instead wtf. It was still fun though, but so exhausting. Shopping is really cardio ok.
I weighed myself using the weighing machine in the hostel gym yesterday. Apparently I'm 43.3kgs o_o and I have a bmi of 16.7 hmmm. I'm pretty sure I was 18 wayyyy before. I guess my weight fluctuates a lot because the heaviest I have been was 45kg and that time seriously sucked. So now, to figure out if I have gained weight or not, I will put on my tiniest shorts. Currently it feels really normal on me, but when I first bought it it felt tight at the ass area LOL
When I had dengue and was dying, this pair of shorts felt so frickin' loose it almost dropped. I'll be truthful and say that I was honestly very amazed at how sickness actually made me so darn skinny. That's why I love falling sick. Not those minor, insignificant illnesses but really crazy ones with bad fever, zero appetite and retching. A bit twisted, actually.
Sometimes I'm really afraid to become fat. All my life I have been skinny. I never needed to do anything at all. I used to eat much much much much more but then last year I decided that I will stop. Not stop eating completely but eat till I feel enough. I love food too much to starve myself. But then after being in AJ, the food choices are just disgusting. Oily, greasy, deep fried, no vegetables. Ewk. And the fruits always sell out FAST.
So what if we have prata??? Can you imagine how disgusting it is to eat prata everyday? So far I have only eaten prata In AJ ONCE. Hate oily food. H A T E .
Oddly enough, I do enjoy hawker food........ Which are mostly oily wtf. I can't make up my mind sometimes.
Seriously speaking though, I kinda dislike it when people tell me how skinny I am, because I really don't see it. My definition of "perfect" is this :
Her tummy is not flat though- it's toned. I think she's sucking it in hahah
But basically her body is more or less perfect.
And when people say "oh my god you're like a stick" I can't go "no I'm not" for fear that they will just whip out a chopper and stab me.
But I really think I'm not skinny!!!!
I actually kinda like my body when I wear tight fitting nonsense. So I look like I have boobs, butt and a flat stomach. But my wardrobe is crap la hahah
Oh and I just googled what is a size 0. Apparently waist is 23 inches... Which means I'm not a size 0 and thus nobody be calling me skinny now. I honestly think it's all about bone structure. If someone with broad shoulders and big hips stand next to me you might think I'm skinnier when we may have the exact same percentage of fat.
This post is so pointless but I'm going to post it up anyway.
jaslynnxxx
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